Can’t sleep — so what else is new?
I used to read Tarot cards. And I was good at it.
Then, I stopped reading them for the worst of reasons: Love.

I toad you so.
When you give up something because someone you love doesn’t like it, that’s the worst of reasons.
Recently I started going back to it again, but it just doesn’t feel right. It’s like the spirit of the cards are making fun of abandoned me.
My boyfriend I loved and abandoned gave me those cards before my first marriage. Yes — I’ve had this deck of tarot cards since dinosaurs roamed the Earth.
And I don’t like what they’re saying. I think they’re playing with my brain — getting back at me for storing them away 20 years. Next time I do a reading, I’ll find out it’s all a sick joke.
Did I really want to know that the USA is headed for civil war? Or that everything around me is going to die?
Really…what else is new?
Civil war has been done to death (don’t excuse the pun) and, well…duh…everything dies. Perhaps the cards are simply stating the obvious:
What it is with people that we just can’t seem to get it together as a species?
There are so many different ways to look at God, and yet I’d rather know how God looks at US. Are we simply entertainment? Live pawns on a universal chess board? Given our inability to get along with our own brains (who hasn’t waged an inner battle), I have to ask: How many chosen people are there?
It depends upon which group is deciding, and I keep wondering if God is really a member of ANY of those groups.
We’re too busy fighting over who should be the ones to die, or whose ideology should be destroyed — which is the same thing, really.
My God vs. your God, or Gods…or no God(s) at all vs. the universal mind vs. Mmmm…chocolate
(I’m easily distracted when I’m one brain cell away from comatose)
Left/Right, Up/Down, Quarks/Bosons (Atom and the Eve of destruction).
So then…why can’t I sleep?
There’s a sick kitty on my lap, and I’m worried sick about him.
My Tarot cards say there’s nothing but misery ahead. If I see one more sword card, I think I’m going to scream. I’d take the sword cards out, but then I wouldn’t be playing with a full deck.
I’ll make an appointment for my kitty to see the vet tomorrow. But that’s tomorrow, and knowing there’s a vet and a possible appointment time doesn’t help me to feel better about tonight.
In a comfortable seat as I ride on your train of thought, expressed delightfully,
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Thanks for seeing it as it was meant to be seen. 🙂
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I will pray for the little one. The rest of us? . . . meh.
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Love the attitude. 🙂
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Poor kitty. I hope all is well
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I had to reschedule my appointment this morning. The only time I can get him in to see the vet is 10:30am — and that comes with a $75 emergency fee. No afternoon appointments at all.
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Hope Kitty is OK.
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We just arrived back from the vet’s office. He has an upper respiratory infection and his bladder was quite full but still soft. Dr. Jeff took OBCC into the back catacombs and helped by manually expressing the urine. There was a slight blockage, but once the urine started to flow he was all right.
Basically, we dodged a bullet. He has antibiotics and something to relax the urinary tract but had I waited a day, it might have been 2 days with a catheter instead of an hour of discomfort of OBCC.
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Poor kitty. Glad it’s being sorted. Maggie has had 3 UTIs and really restless and inconsolable with the most recent. Giving her the antibiotics for this saliva gland infection in corned beef, so she thinks it’s Christmas!
Get well soon puss.
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I hope your kitty will be OK.
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Glad I didn’t get here til OBCC got a diagnosis (my internet at home died so I drove to the closest library) Purrayers that he continues to get better. Mabe he can purr you to sleep ?
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He is presently sitting in the window and listening to his favorite meditation music. Is there such a thing as an over-spoiled cat?
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My cats just have to put up with whatever I;m listening to. What meditation music is it ?
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Here’s the link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UkM-FjfN6Mc
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Will the war be civil? I’m going to be a third party to it, firing on both groups … well, I can’t sleep either. My oldest cat almost 17 has been on his last legs for a year. Now taking four pills a day. Am I crazy? I love the meditation music, as I ramble on here. Today I went to Chair Yoga to be told the class was full and could I come back Thursday? Well, no, I can’t. They closed the door on me. I wish now I’d banged on the door for about half an hour. Meditate on that, you zen-phonies! Can we be three on a rant?
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That would make a great post! Not that I’m happy that you’re miserable — I’m not. It’s just that I can relate to the fact that caring for a dying cat is a thankless job. My favorite cat in the world was “dying” (by all accounts from different vets) for 10 years. Then, when he really was at death’s door, it took months for him to decide whether he wanted to be in or out, in or out….
Then you meet the opposite-of Zen from the people who are supposed to
be helping you achieve it.You are more than welcome to provide a guest ramp. Message me on FB. 🙂
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I finally slept well – til noon! My mother too. We need to reset and move on. Thank you for giving me a place to vent what happened yesterday! I’m honored by the “guest ramp” but you two have a special blog. I know now I have to pare down my activities for a while.
My cat has been sick for at least 5 years. It’s crazy what we’ll do for these critters.
I hope you get some well-deserved sleep too. Zen in, zzzz.
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We love our 4-footed companions, no doubt about it. My sick kitty is presently on my lap watching me type. There is something so calming about that.
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Are you clairvoyant? I really wish I could go see the first one I ever saw way back when I was 17! It only took 20 years to understand something she said. Cheers,H
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Are you clairvoyant? I really wish I could go see the first one I ever saw way back when I was 17! It only took 20 years to understand something she said. Cheers,H
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So good the comment posted twice. You are gifted. 🙂
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