What it’s like…
The attic rattles with flying squirrels tearing at my boxes; treasures shredded, thrown, used as urinals while they bounce against the walls.
Why wasn’t I a better child…a better wife., mother, person, lover, employee, carer of dogs and cats…a kind person knowing how to love.
Two hours of tossing, rolling ideas around a mind wishing for sleep, begging to close my eyes, to feel the world fade around me and awaking at dawn.
On the witching hour, another chapter chases away the squirrels, who scatter and hide while I type out the pages my mind refuses to ignore.
Insomnia sings to me off-key and I scream for relief while she unlocks doorways, tearing apart boxes of what-if’s…exposing my deepest regrets.
I want to know…what is it like to live without exhaustion, to awaken eight hours later, refreshed, aware, and ready for the day?
Must be seriously exhausting. I hope you find a remedy.
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I’ve tried many. There are some that will help me get to sleep for about 4 hours and them I’m up for the remainder of the night.
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That’s a bummer. I also suffer from insomnia but not on a regular basis. Mine has a lot to do with taking stimulating beverage like coke and coffee.
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Mine has many factors, but I have also found that drinks with caffeine at night contribute to sleeplessness.
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That they definitely do. I just have one cup of regular coffee in the morning and then it’s de-Caf the whole day.
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That is exactly what I do, too. I have ultra-strong Irish Breakfast Tea in the morning and nothing with caffeine after that.
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That should make sleeping easy?
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I can not live without my afternoon kip on the weekends. However, then I toss and turn all night. I don’t know who these people who get 8 hours of sleep a. Ishtar but I don’t like them! Cheers,H
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It would be a gift to sleep 8 hours each night. People don’t know what a treasure they have when they get enough sleep.
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